hey


its me again
what a bother, no?

well today i write this journal. more than anything to get answers.
as most of you have seen i wrote a new poem, if that's what you call it:{
some of you may not understand it, or like it as a matter of fact. because as some of you may have seen its towards a girl

and I'm sorry if your homophobic>< but a girl's got to do what a girl's got to do. and i needed to put my words into paper, or in this case into my laptop.


you see, i am going to turn 21 this November, and still i think i have experienced love,but there is a slight problem, how do i know i was right...don't worry I'm not going to get into the gory details.not that it was gory:}

the times that i have fallen in love have been unsuccessful, since they were straight:}

we are still friends so its all kool.

but still, there is a slow ache there,and some regret too, well regret is not the right word. but thats not the case. the case is that.

i know what i felt/feel was real. but my question for all of you is.


HOW DO YOU DEFINE THE WORD LOVE?

in your own words.

please for those of you who have known me longer, hahahaha. sorry this must be weird for you.

this is more of a diary other than a journal don't you think:}

sorry to all of you but really I'm wondering what different feelings everyone has. and how everyone seems to have a new description for love, and still its the same for everyone.


please leave comments, as you please, try to not make them crud though. pretty please with a cherry on top. thanks everyone and i hope i can hear from you. unless you all decide that you hate my guts anyways and delete my account from yours. its kool i will understand.

well good luck to all of you
and take care my best wishes nayi.

oh by the way i have a Christmas cactus now. its beautiful.